What to do. what do you...
Do you ever feel like you don't know how to make choices? or let alone, what choices to make? how to narrow down your options? Now that the deadlines for the applications for going abroad Junior Year gets closer and closer, I feel desperate to find an answer... I know in the end it will all work out but until then, I must survive with my struggles of my thoughts, the pros and cons, and the ultimate decision... plus making choices is something we must deal with with the rest of our lives because these choices turn into consequences, and ultimately guide us into our future.
As you may (or may not) already tell, I like to be spontaneous, very random, and I like to write comfortably using any sort of language and following no format. yeah.. so I apologize for the one or two out there who are reading this blog if my thoughts seem incoherent and I go all over the place, because thats how my thoughts formulate; i don't seem to have a structural form of thinking, which I think would be a good idea to develop.
But anyways, back to making choices and decisions...
Everyday we make choices: what time to eat lunch, when to start doing our homework, where to go study, what to study, what classes to take, what to do on the weekends, etc etc...
But the problem with making a choice is the consequence that follows...
The decisions we make everyday may be not have a life changing effect, obviously because these are petty and trivial decisions.
However, the choice i must make is one that may impact my future (or maybe I am just stressing over nothing)
But here is my dilemma:
A. follow what is rational and what makes sense
B. take a chance and follow my motivation without rationality...
I want to pursue something that is controversial... admist that controversy, I do in fact create forced justification that is rational and valuable, but that justification, though it has many positive externalities is not my true motivation.
So obviously the question is, what to do...
follow my drive though it would be taking a big chance, or follow what makes sense?
On another note, its the last week of class... and there are only 2 more weeks left before I go back home, which makes me smile to think about. But before that, I must survive evil testings and finals.
Yeah I just heard the song Such great heights by iron and wine and its soothing. Perhaps i should listen to something hard rock to get me going because I need to bust my ass for the next week and a half!
